Forever Day, Never Night

Thursday, December 06, 2007

tuesday was suppose to be a good day. it was suppose to my one day out of the year to be incredibly selfish. but i wasnt. my birthday was just an average day. i still had to go to work. nothing out of the ordinary. recieved calls from both my parents before heading to work. work was slow as ever. i brought homemade cookies and homemade hot cocoa in for the 4 of us. which i might say was definitely appreciated. i got out of work early. which was a good thing and bad. we were getting hit with snow. this was exciting! i NEVER get snow on my birthday. so this brightened up my day til i had to drive home in it. im driving the family suburban aka THE BEAST. now i like to think that i dont freak out when theres a little snow on the ground. so i played it cool. flipped the beast into 4 wheel drive and made my way home. more than half way home im turning a corner than isnt plowed very well... and this beast of a car starts sliding in the middle of the intersection. i freaked out but recovered nicely. made my way home a little less confident that before. i get home and the scent of dinner instantly fills my nose.. now let me just say that there's a tradition in my family that on the day of someone's birthday that person gets to pick what they want. to my surprise the essence of meatloaf filled my nose. ok not exactly what i had in mind for my birthday dinner but whatever.. i also wasnt expected home til 10 that night and here i am walkin in the door at 8. i got a huge hug from my bro' who is quite possibly amazing... he got me two movies.. van helsing and donnie darko and a 30 seconds to mars poster for my room... he thinks that its time that nick carter and britney spears come down....lol....so here i am thinking about all the things that ive brought up that i would want or need for my birthday.. a new car, my own teacup terrier dog, a new camera, money for my indy trip? we're going to kohl's....wtf... they CLEARLY know that i HATE clothes shopping. plus i just went shopping with my mom two months ago. and of all places why kohl's? why not like take me to woodfield and let me get a varity from different stores...i dont complain and just carry on our way. i got nothing. my dad starts criticizing me like he always does. lets not forget that had not recieved one phone call from any of my friends.. only facebook messages... which to me shows that 'yea i remember but only because facebook told me and this is the best i can do' sorry if that seems mean but thats the way it comes off to me. i come home after that eat meatload which was the WORST meatloaf ever.. then went to bed sick with a migrane and an upset stomach.. im blaming the meatloaf.. it must have been 10pm. i try to look at the positives from the day and i dont see very many. besides my family excluding my sister who didnt say shit to me. the fact that i didnt die driving home. and last night instead of clothes i got a new tv and dvd player for my room. and thats about it. i was really looking forward to this coming weekend with the party but everyone kept coming up with excuses to why they couldnt come. i just really wanted to spend time with my friends. i have seen any of you since september when i left. im starting to feel that no one really cares at all. and i would love to come to oshkosh but i dont have the extra cash to drive up there nor the mode of transportation. so ill be sitting at home this weekend... might be hanging out with a few old friends from high school. or this new guy that i met.. he's a really sweet guy but does have some baggage but im going to look past that...no he's not a felon or anything like that..

posted by Kristen at 12:09 PM -

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