Forever Day, Never Night

Sunday, November 18, 2007

the holidays are arriving faster than usual it seems...this week is thanksgiving... big whoop dee doo.. i used to love this holiday and not for the food but for the closeness that i feel with all my family... but this year it just seems like theres a nasty funk that is coming with it. apparently we have to ask if we're invited to thanksgiving on my dad's side... fuck that bullshit... thats the problem with my dad's side... they hold grudges... and they're still holding one from when we didnt have easter this past year... who the hell cares.... im over it... i was a long time ago... so apparently we have to ask... i dont think my parents plan on calling my aunt which means that we're going to have our first non extended family thanksgiving...thats if i can go...see my parents want to head up to wisconsin on wednesday night and have dinner up there on thursday night.. well if im correct i have to work on friday at 10am... totally pointless for me to go up and im not going to say i cant come into work on friday... i need the money..bad.. so it may end up that im spending thanksgiving alone... this is the part that i hate the most of not having alot of friends in the area.... two weeks from tuesday is my 22nd birthday... where did the past year go?! its almost depressing... again ill be spending my birthday alone.. i have to work.. oh goodie.. and the idea for my party that weekend is looking like itll probably fall to pieces... i just have a bad feeling about it. i get this feeling that no one is going to be able to come since its near finals week...i always get screwed.... and christmas... dont even get me started... and through out all these holidays ill be spending it alone... as in significant other alone... for the 3 year in a row. no one to kiss under the misletoe no one to sit near the fireplace with no one to kiss happy new year with at midnight... im pathetic... ive realized it and accepted it....damn.. i really hate this time of the year... the holidays and the weather make me really depressed....damn

posted by Kristen at 6:47 PM -

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