| self motivation and withdrawal (but a different kind) |
| i quit smoking today... im on the patch... which could be the reason why im writing at 5 in the morning... i was having some weird ass dreams and i know that it was a possible symptom but i didnt think it would bother me.. that and i was in a constant awake not awake sleep all night. headaches arnt bad at all but i totally miss the oral part of havin something in my mouth..thats killin me..so im chewin alot of gum and keepin busy....rides to and from work are a killer! ...speaking of work ..it is goin well for the most part...looks like i may be quitting the bar really soon. depends how everything turns out. our staff meeting on monday was cancelled which pissed me off cuz i SO could have slept in but no my manager is a DICK and doesnt call and let everyone know.. he thought id just be a good idea to tell ppl as they came in... what if i had other plans and cancelled those just to make the meeting... douche...then i found out that the resturant/bar was closed all day on monday and Jerry the head cook quit...very interesting i must say. thats ok i was starting to hate working there..i liked bartending but the drama was just too much.plus i need a change...i dont wanna work as a waitress/bartender the rest of my life... anyways...since im pretty much goin to be located in burbs for awhile i decided to hit up some dating sites. iknow its kinda tacky but i figured what other way to meet guys. some of them like always are a little creepy others ive found have been really interesting. ive been talking to 4 different guys.. with some messages pending but im getting a response that i didnt expect... i think my face is a bit decieving on whats below the neck though... oh well.. i guess thats its personality that matters most right? one guy is 27 and lives in Barrington... which is a pretty well off area. hes cute too and seems really interesting...he has sarcasm which just sucks me in... we were found to be mutal matches and i just messaged him so we'll see where that goes. another guy he actually went to one of our high school's rivals.. and works like literally down the street from me.. its crazy.. the other guy ive been talking to in long emails... its fun.. whether it goes anywhere or not its something to do and look forward to throughout the day. speaking about the day... i was at work today at the studio... it was basically charlie and i all day.. and we were talking and he said that i should say something to Joe about possibly going full time. i was hesitant but he said why would i be telling you to do it... so obviously something is goin on...that Joe is happy with the work that im doing and is thinking about keepin me... i hope i hope i hope!!! finally makes me relax.... i took that in mind and decided to sit in on charlie while he was with some customers... listening to the sales pitch and all the different kinds of photography packages we have... i think thats a good way to show Joe that i want to stay..not to mention im answering phones,which i have a huge almost phobia of it, and dealing with customers answering questions and what not... im taking the initiative!!! which it totally uncommon for me... i feel like this move from school to home is make me more proactive about things... im taking the first step.. no one is pushing me....its because i want it... i always just let things come to me but not anymore... my next thing is to get a pass to the gym... ive been feeling so lazy just goin to work then coming home and sleeping. so thats on the list of things to do...so much stuff to do so little time...but i have to say although im away from my friends which KILLS me... im makng the best out of the situation... and am finally feeling content... yay go me! i think do a little bit of personal God time has helped too... |
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I'm very proud of you!!
It's good to see things are working out for you a little bit at a time.
I love your blogs. They make me laugh because I hear you talking...
I'm glad you decided to quit smoking..sad because..car drives are more fun with them..haha
I hope those boys turn out..and you never know what's below the neck on them either. Hit the gym and start feeling good about being you!!!
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Name: Kristen
Home: Schaumburg, Illinois, United States
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posted by Kristen at 
I'm very proud of you!!
It's good to see things are working out for you a little bit at a time.
I love your blogs. They make me laugh because I hear you talking...
I'm glad you decided to quit smoking..sad because..car drives are more fun with them..haha
I hope those boys turn out..and you never know what's below the neck on them either. Hit the gym and start feeling good about being you!!!
;)