| should i stay or should i go? |
| i've got a pretty big decision to make. the past couple weeks have been incredibly stressful and have been taking a toll on my mental health if you will. i've been incredibly depressed, crying at everything, and just homesick like no other. this past week has been the worst i must say. i was talking to my mom today and i just completely broke down. completely as in i've cried almost all day. between school, guys, friends, and just flat out being incredibly alone i finally snapped. and i should have seen it coming. my mom suggested that with all the stress that im having maybe itd be a good idea for me to leave school. either take the rest of the semester off or the rest of the year. just so i can get my shit together whether its mentally, physically, emotionally. everything. my mom says that i need to get my head on straight. and i see where she's coming from. school isnt as much fun as it used to be. i mean yea i love art but do i REALLY wanna do this for the rest of my life? why am i even in school? i guess that question right there should tell me that maybe my mom is in fact right and that i need to just stop this school thing for awhile. i mean what ive been goin strong on school for 15-16 years? maybe it is time for a break. but heres the thing... does that make me look like a failure? does that show that im not good enough? i dont wanna be letting anyone down and i know thats not waht is important. but it is a factor in my decision. so here's the big thing.. leave school and move back home for awhile.. get my act together, work for awhile and see where that takes me.. or just suck it up for the remaining time that i have (about another 1 1/2 years) and just keep "fixing" the problems as they come? i can always look into transferring to NIU at the Hoffman campus and do my art classes there... maybe i can do that and just take like a couple credit hours and still work? maybe i just need to get out of Oshkosh..maybe its holding me back from other opportunities? i really don't know what to do... i just know that right now im goin to bed.. this weekend has been way too much on me... plus i think i just wanna cry some more |
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You're not a failure.
It would be worse if you wasted your time, energy, and money not going to class or..stressing out about everything. We all know you're incredibly smart and talented. Just get yourself together and begin to love yourself like we love you !
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kristen.
though you may not believe it...
you are beautiful
you are talented
you are a wonderful individual
you are not worthless
and you are definitely not a failure.
you are amazing.
I love you.
you may not believe it, but i will beat it into your head if need be!
ok, no violence.
i hope this was the right decision for you dear.
i AM always here, tho i am a douchebag sometimes.
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posted by Kristen at 
You're not a failure.
It would be worse if you wasted your time, energy, and money not going to class or..stressing out about everything. We all know you're incredibly smart and talented. Just get yourself together and begin to love yourself like we love you !