this week a conversation came up about fitting a specific mold/ stereotype... it was discussed that i dont fit into any specific one... i'm too different... i have aspects from different "types" of people but i dont conform to one specific. but heres the question... why should i? i was taught when i was growing up that everyone was different... but now it seems that if you dont fit a specific style/genre then you dont fit in you are considered unique, different or werid. i have embraced my unique-ness i dont think i should have to alter who i am just to fit into some stupid pointless stereotype... plus how old are we?? we're in college... the days of stereotypes were left in high school where they belong. i have a variety of friends and as far as im concerned i dont care about stereotypes.. the people that i call my friends dont need to wear abercrombi just to be my friend, or listen to a certain type of music... my friends are my friends because somewhere in our twisted, crazy and at times intellectual conversations we have connected on issues or topics beyond music and what we wear for example...besides fitting stereotypes i shouldn't have to change who i am for someone to like me... yes i like certain music groups that people would rather never hear again... yes i like one of the worst teams in major league baseball... but why cant anyone seem to look past some of these things... baseball and music are my passions.. i love them ... i'm not going to change those.. they've made me who i am ...but why does it seem that everyone assumes that that's all there is to me??? there's so much more.. i'm having a very difficult time understanding what was said to me by a very trusted and close friend. i like to know what other people think about me so i can try and make myself a better person and not be avoided... yes and at times it does bother me by what others say...but thats something i have to deal with. many people dont realize that i can be a very introspective person... i do alot of thinking.. sometimes about nothing... if im quiet or not talking doesnt mean that im depressed or upset... if i lock myself in my room for awhile and not talk to anyone for a couple hours..it doesnt mean that im depressed... it just means that i need my time alone.. my time to sort issues out by myself and sometimes just to relax in bed and space out for awhile and just let my mind go... i know thinkin gets me into trouble and i anaylze things but that is who i am...
here's a couple things that people may not know about me:
- i fear rejection more than death
- i hate being alone...except in certain circumstances... next semester scares the shit outt a me.. im goin to be alone alot and i dont know how im goin to handle it
- i'm very shy at first then tend to open up
- i wear what is comfortable.. i hate dressing up.. and i know guys like that but hey.. id rather be liked for who i am than for what im wearing
- i have a very hard time approaching people that i dont know
- i try to please everyone before taking care of myself.. aka im very self-less
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