| goin back to O-town |
| 3 days til im back in Oshkosh. im extremely anxious to get back. i miss everyone to tears. i cant tell you how boring the past summer as been. its been work and cleaning.. i will admit that i did have a few bright spots like the AFI concert with my bro, the times spent with trinidad, bonding with the fam, my sisters graduation, and the camping trip. i wish it was a lil more fun though. i hated my job so that put a damper on the summer. i got my syllabi for my classes. god am i in for trouble. im really anxious to start my photo class. not to mention i get to borrow my dads awesome camera compared to my piece of shit. so thats exciting minus the amount of money im going to have to spend on all the equipment. packing is almost finished. ive decided that im becoming a pro at packing all my shit up in a matter of hours..ok maybe not hours but ill say days. im trying to think of some cool decorations or something to jazz my room up. i still havnt gotten it down to how to make my dorm me and its been 3 years.. damn. ive got a cellestial bed spread and what not and alot of the colors in my room are dark so if anyone has ideas shoot em over. hell maybe you can come over and help me do it. after reading nicole's blog and reading about saliva. im interested. im just afraid that either a) ill really like it or b) ill have a bad experience with it like i have had with pot. hmm. maybe ill sit back and watch the first time.. we'll see. i need to make this year better than all the other previous years. im tired of having little to no social life. or my social life consists of stalking people on facebook. i think i just need to get away from my computer. its too much of a damn distraction. but yea so with that.. this will probably be my last post until im in Oshkosh for a couple days. i gotta finish packing and then its the walworth county fair this weekend and im goin out with some of the girls from work tonight so. with that i say peace out for now |
|
|
|
| no rain |
| today is the first day in about 4 days that i hasnt rained. it was kinda nice to actually see the sun and come out of that depressed mood that i get into when it rains for days. two more days of work and thats it. i dont think i could do anymore after this past week... 48 hours in a week with 15 hours in one day. damn. let me tell you how beat i was after that. completely exhausted. slept for hours and watch movies and slept some more. today i actually accomplished something besides sleeping and watching movies. i packed my first box for school! yay! only two more weeks til the first day of class and less than that til i get back in good ol sweet oshvegas. im goin camping this weekend for one last hurrah for the summer. so far its just me and my buddy dave goin .. out in the dells.. should be interesting to say the least. im looking forward to it. next week its back to illinois for some minor packing from the house there, maybe a dentist and eye doctor appointment and then spendin the rest of the week with my dad. walworth county fair is next weekend. i might go ..who knows. i guess the money situation will determine that for me. or maybe ill just get drunk at the bar... hmmm... decisions decisions. anyways ive decided that this school year im goin to make it as interesting as possible. im goin for the fuck it attitude.. cept when it comes to classes. i really need to buckle down but as for drama and everything else. fuck it i dont care anymore. im tried of b.s. i need to loosen up a lil bit too and not take everything so seriously. i also need to work out too.. and i dont have an excuse anymore. the new wellness center is FREE! and its got rock climbing and all kinds of other stuff. i need to get back into shape and start takin care of myself better and who knows maybe a guy will come along. mhmm.. oh well.. |
|
|
|
| i just might.... |
| throw myself off a cliff after this weekend.... worked tonight from 2-9 then i work tomorrow 8am-10pm and then the same on sunday... so much for having a social life....28 hours of work in 2 days sucks! |
|
|
|
| gah... frustration |
| so i didnt go into work yesterday.. which was explained in the 2nd to last post. went into work today.. did my thing blah blah blah.. im not fired ..not written up... not nothing.. im going to get trained as a bartender on tuesday.. at least get some experience so i can go work someplace else... its kinda nice but then again not so nice... i wouldnt mind having the next 3 weeks off |
|
|
|
| i think ill go to Boston |
In the light of the sun, is there anyone? Oh it has begun...
Oh dear you look so lost, eyes are red and tears are shed,
This world you must've crossed... you said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
Essential yet appealed, carry all your thoughts across
An open field,
When flowers gaze at you... they're not the only ones who cry
When they see you
You said...
You don't know me, you don't even care, oh yeah,
She said
You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains... oh yeah,
She said I think I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,
I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...
I think I'll go to Boston,
I think that I'm just tired
I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...
I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,
I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,
You don't know me, you don't even care...
Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah
Where no one knows my name...
Where no one knows my name...
Yeah Boston...
Where no one knows my name. |
|
|
|
| I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself |
| summer is winding down and im counting the days ... less than 30 days til im back in Oshkosh. I'm looking forward to it like a little kid waiting for its birthday party. i'm overly anxious to get back but i feel like this summer was just a waste of time. i didnt do anything that i wanted to do. everything revolved around work... it was usually my lack of hours which usually led to no money to do anything. this job of mine can fucking kiss my ass. now that summer is winding down im working close to 35 hours a week. yea i need the money and all but why couldnt i get these hours at the beginning? and not to mention the schedule is fucking bullshit. i put in over a month ago that i need this upcoming weekend off for this big festival that my town holds every year. and my boss schedules me. pretty much said that if its not fixed im not coming into work. i dont care if i get written up for it. i dont care if they fire me. honestly, i just dont care about that job anymore. they fucked me over big time this summer. my boss will get a very "nice" thank you later on my last day of work which is September 1. so moving on from work. i want one last hurrah for the summer i dont know what but i need somthing. with my luck though, nothing will happen. i want to go camping or something. i just know one thing that i need is to get ridiculously wasted with some good friends. in other thoughts, i'm feeling pretty useless lately. i'm not sure why but i think its cuz i dont do anyhting besides work. seriously thats all i do. i wake up at around 1030 then watch tv or surf the web, then get ready for work then go to work come home and go to bed. i dont do ANYTHING. and its starting to drive me crazy. i cant wait to have the stress of school again. from finding time to finish papers and squeezing in 2o minute naps between classes. late nights partying. and random crazyness. the more i've thought about this whole situation of living on my own in a dorm where i dont know anyone is starting to settle with me. i really need to buckle down on my grades. i need to get at least all Bs this semester. if i dont then idk anymore. i try and try and i still fail with what i need to accomplish. so not knowing anyone around me could be a good thing. more studying. less study breaks and interruptions. maybe ill just lock myself in the library for the whole semester? eh.. im freaking out about school already and its still a month away. i have waaay too many anxieties. |
|
|
|
|
Name: Kristen
Home: Schaumburg, Illinois, United States
About Me: I have an awkward personality.. i swear you will never me anyone like me
See my profile...
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Brushes by Gvalkyrie
|
|
posted by Kristen at 
