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wow... i'm back on here... its been about 6 months since i last posted.. and ALOT has happend.
well to start off.. i'm still working at TGI Fridays.. i feel like i die a little more each day that i work there.. but it's money and i've gotten a "promotion" to service partner (SP).. i'm no longer a hostess! sweet... so that includes a higher tip out but harder work and sometimes even longer hours...a plus to the job is ive met some incredible people that keep work fun!
obviously i didnt get that other dispatching job... just found that out about 3 weeks ago.. yes i waited 6 months on a job that i didnt get..oh well shit happens..
i picked up a second job back in july. working at a cigar shop 3 days a week. its easy work and decent money. i get bored quite frequently...
speaking of boredom i've picked up some old hobbies.. i've started reading again. i've read about 16 books in the past 2-3 months. all mainly about vampires.. which is another obsession that is back. i've become obsessed with the Twilight Saga.. which now consumes my life until the movie comes out in November. I've found alot of intriguing young adult vampire series that i just can't put down. i wait anxiously til the next one comes out!
i've also started my creative writing again..although i don't let anyone read them.. i never feel they're good enough or i go and revise what ive written and add more or delete.. its a never ending battle...
i also have a new obsession with the tv show Supernatural.. i fucking LOVE this show. i dont know how i lived without the amazing-ness that is Eric Kripke and the beautifulness of Jensen Ackles.. sigh... this is one of the things that makes my week amazing.. hanging out with the girls from work watching the show.. love it
I also quit playing warcraft... it was consuming my life...
friend-wise.. i've drifted apart from many of my friends especially some from college. I rarely ever talk to angie, sarah,sam, megan and kristy any more.. and that makes me sad but i guess thats to be expected since we are all growing up.i have also cut out my friend Dave.. this is a long and complicated story but i'm finally happier without him in my life. i miss some of the fun trips to meijer and what not but i dont miss the critizism and the constant put downs but in the meantime ive gotten ALOT closer with Trinity and Tina. i love them to pieces.. i just wish we didnt have to be so far away from each other.. i've also made a close friend with one of my sister's friends Tim. He keeps me sane during the weeks and we have alot of fun just doing random stuff.
I'm still unfortunately single... but what else is new.. My sister is soon to be engaged to her boyfriend when he come back from Iraq. She'll most likely be moving out soon too. But so will i!
the Real World. Something that throws unexpected bumps, turns, and sometimes scares the living shit out of you. i've learned alot about that in the past couple months. between struggling with money, friends, and jobs.. my family had a huge curve ball thrown at us about 2 months ago. my mom was diagnosised with stage 1 breast cancer. thankfully she caught it early but that just completely turned my world upside down. my mom is my rock. she's the one who keeps me going when i dont think i have anything else left in me. and the thought of seeing my mom have to struggle with another set back (she had serverely broken her ankle 2 years ago that later led to her losing her job) just broke me in two. i was in complete denial about it and i'm not even sure i've cried about it.. actually i think i did once. but for me to show that i was scared would only upset and worry my mom.. the last thing she needs to worry about. i remember the night that she told all of us at dinner. i hope i never have to relive that again. she has had her first round of surgery and everything looked good..she wasnt expected to have to do chemo or radiation just hormone therapy for awhile..that was until we got her scans back.. it appeared that it had already started to spread to the other lymph nodes. making her a borderline stage 2. so she has to do chemo. she starts tomorrow. i know this is truly a test not just for my mom but for us as a family. we've have pulled together and not only helped her with her illness but helped each other.
this latest struggle in my life has also had me asking alot of questions regarding my faith in God. after dealing with my own period of serious depression, my mom losing her job, my dropping out of school and losing all interst in it, my dad's struggle with his job, my sister's rebellion at home, and now with my mom's cancer.. why is God doing this to us? i know to most people, my life is like peach pie. now i'm not saying that i have it worse than others but for us to have to deal with all of this within the past 4 years is alot to handle. but WHY is he doing this to us? doesnt He want us to be happy? what have we done to deserve this? i cant find any kind of explaination for this. now i'm not saying i've become an athetist but i've begun looking at other ideas for possible answers. i have definitely strayed away from God.
on the bright side Trinity and i are shooting for next July to move out of our parents' homes and move to Appleton and get an apartment together. That is exciting but also terrifying in the same sense. Being completly on my own and actually LIVING in the REAL world..
Trin and I are also going to BOSTON!! We're going in celebration of my birthday in december and also to visit her family. I can't wait to experience something different. other than that.. everything is slow and has become a routine in my life.. it sucks but i guess its to be expected... so until my next update..
peace love and rock n roll |
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Name: Kristen
Home: Schaumburg, Illinois, United States
About Me: I have an awkward personality.. i swear you will never me anyone like me
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